Don't Smile At Me

I don't smile for the reasons you smile. You don't have a clue why i'm
smiling at you, don't smile at me. Your eyes are decieving your brain.

I wasn't born a saint and i won't die a saint. All saints have died in
the past and sinners have lived into the future. Its about time you
quit trying to change me. I refuse to feed your need to turn me into
something only you desire. Its not my fault you found me along your
journey to your endless life. I wonder why you keep forgeting how easy
it is for me to get rid of you. If i remember corrently, i don't need
help to breath. Believe me when i say, I can live without you. I
suggest you start giving me a reason to keep you in my life. You don't
have an effect in my well being. Being with you have brought nothing
but constant judgements. I can't pretend anymore.

I'm tired of defending myself everytime i open my mouth. I'm tired of
apologising for being me. I've reached a point where i just don't care
anymore. Go, stay, either way, i don't care.

WHO DOES THAT???

The fun thing about being about the internet is that you get to chat
with a lot of different people with different backgrounds.
Unfortunately this means that you get to meet a bunch of idiots.

Out of all the idiots you meet, there's this one who tops them all.
That one who has the guts to place a profile picture with a dead
person horrible squashed by an angry crowed for some reason his brain
was splashed all over the floor. I get sick even writing about it. How
am i going to sleep with this image in my mind? If i knew there were
such heartless people who strive out of watching others suffer, i
would have choose not to be born.

If you saw something that horrific, why feel the need to show us? We
try so hard to keep away from the violance outside, i mean that's one
of the reasons why some of us joined the chating community. It doesn't
matter whether it's a little innocent baby born with a hole in the
chest, i don't want to see it. Stop forwarding disgusting things,
what's wrong with you? idiot.

Please Let Me GO

I tryed to please you, i tryed to understand you but all you do is
turn your back at me. Exactly what do you want from me? Did i ask for
your presence to be in my life? I don't recall that happening. I think
you painted the wrong image about me.

Exactly what do you know? I let you tag along when you in need of
company, i let you wet my shirt with those tears you brought when you
appeared on my door step. What were you thinking coming to me when you
in need? Do you even know how i feel everytime you drop a tear when
you visit? I'm beggining to question your presence in my life. I have
reached a point where i just don't care anymore. I'm tired of all the
sadness you showered me with, i'm tired of the hatered i suddenly
developed everytime i hear your name.

I think its time you went your way, i'm sure you are tired of me as
much as i am tired of you. I'm suffocating, walk away and let me
breath, i promise i wont follow you.

They Tricked Us

I always knew free social media sites are not to be trusted. They took
advantage of our honesty. I knew all this free membership stuff were
too good to be true, i should have saw it coming, i was tricked into
revealing my information, now its out there for the world to see.

Apparently when you register to a social network they keep a database
field with all your updates. It's field with details such us your
location, your activities, your likes, dislikes and you history. No
one told me they can store all that and use it for there own benefit.

No one should make money with my information, it does't matter whether
they do not completly reveal my detail, what matters is that they are
making money of it and i don't like it.

At the end of the day, the one to blame is me and no one else.
I could go back and change my details. But i can't. I'm stuck and i can't stand it.

I'M SORRY, IT WAS A MISTAKE

When a child breaks that one of a kind glass trophy you have worked
hard for, what do you do? It's either you beat the child or you slowly
pick it up piece by piece and you take it to a handyman and get it all
fixed. That's what we call a mistake being corrected. A mistake is
something that happens once. Anything that happens over and over again
is not a mistake, it does't matter how drunk you were or how lonely
you where, you can never justify lying as a mistake.

When most people come to there senses and start realising how idiotic
it was to lie, they hide behind the word 'mistake'. Sometimes you
even have to wonder if the person is really ok up stairs. How lonely
do you need to be in order for you to take morality away and hide
behind a mistake.

Have you ever considered the pain a mistake can cause? Only if you knew
how hard it is to understand the reason for lying, you will lock
away your 10 seconds desires and focus on what's infront of you.
Mistakes don't just happen by themselves or do they?...